I'm gna' quit studying. I'm gna' flunked my mid years. Fail my end of year. Drop to normal. Get lousy results for my O's. And kill myself. 'Cause no matter how well i did, What i do, Whether i'm fine or not. As long as it's related to me. Anything that's related to me, You don't bother. Maybe to you i'm nothing but an investment that you grew bored of. I can fairly guess that you regretted. Giving birth to me, Was your Life Regret. Maybe i shouldn't exist. Maybe i should vanish one day? Will you notice? I wonder...... I think my teachers and friends actually care about me more then you do. I think even if i were to get ALL a1's for my MYE. You will just say that, I should have done better. You will never be satisfied. No matter how hard i try. You just give me the 'I don't bother' attitude. You know, Sooner or later, Even if i don't die. I'll break down. I know i used to complain that i've too much restrictions. But now. I'd rather complain then to face this. Whatever, I'm just gna' learn from you.

Daddy, y'know what. I'm gna' give you the 'I don't bother' attitude too. Since you don't bother what's the point? I get good grades, You don't care. I get lousy grades, You don't care either. All you do, Is do your part by giving me pocket money. That doesn't solve anything you know? Whatever Whatever. I'm not caring anymore.

Mummy, I know you always have high hopes on me. But you never understands the stress. You kept saying my syllabus is so easy. But you don't know that i'm dying. I don't understand all the shit i learnt in school. I'm so dead for my MYE. But you don't know. How hard i'm trying to study. How hard i'm trying to get good grades to please you. Just like my CA. Those results to you were shit. But i was actually kinda proud of it. Can you lower your expectations? 'Cause i know i can never reach it. ): I don't wna' disappoint you. But i know you will never see the hardwork i put in. And you will go like, You never study hard enough and all. Sighs.

People in my class are saying what i'm smart and all. Please la. If i'm smart. My world wouldn't be this pathetic right? I can't please either of my parents, No matter how hard i tried. To them, Nothing is right. All is wrong. No matter what i do, She's always the right one. She flunked her results to the extreme max. To the extent she almost DROPPED TO NORMAL or RETAINED. But you people, Never once scolded her. Never once said anything.... Why are things like that? The moment i flunked something, i get shit from y'll. What's the problem? Is it that you all just lost hope in her? Or is it i'm just a tool to show off to y'll friends? I wonder. I might be thinking too much. But i guess they are facts that i'm gna' face it one day. Sighs, I shall shutup.

Well, Today school was fine i guess. I slept at 3, And school ends at 230. Tired to the extreme i swear. Hahahaha. Those who have broken hearts, Hope y'll get better soon! And to those that are currently attached, Appreciate your other half! And Last long eh? :D Well, Okay. Shall end here. Monkey luvs pig :D & Clique( Thou we are not as close anymore): ) & Sorry if i've been giving anybody pms-y attitude.

Monkey says BYE :D